I’m sharing my story to give testimony of God’s Unconditional Love, Grace, Forgiveness and Healing. I have my mother’s blessing to share. I believe we should only look at the past when the Lord takes us there. The goal is not to blame people but it is important to be honest of how things really were for our own healing so we can forgive, repent, process the emotions, inviting God’s love to fill those parts that were once filled with un-forgiveness, pain, fear, anger, bitterness..
David had a beautiful heart: Psalm 139:23-24 “Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; And see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”
I was born and raised in South Africa, and this is my story…
Growing up was not easy. My family lived in a small town farm community. My father was addicted to painkillers and suffered from depression. He did not know how to show love to me, he never cuddled me or told me he loved me. He was a broken man.
At the age of 3, there was a season where I stuttered. At the age of 7, I was hospitalized for a week as the doctor felt he needed to do some tests on me as they could not find what was wrong with me. The tests revealed I was dealing with tremendous stress. As a 7 year old, I sat in the bath one evening, and told my mother I wanted to die…
In my late 30s, during a prayer counseling session, memories came back to me of being molested as a child by someone. In the past I had problems with anger and through much healing I was able to cope, but I was not free. When these memories came back, all the emotions attached to it, including the anger, surfaced and I was able to process it during the session. I was shocked but knew it was real as the emotion and fruit was evident. That day the Lord set me free. Jesus paid for freedom, not just coping. The good fruit from the prayer time was evident in my life. I did not need to manage the negative emotions anymore – it was gone.
At age of 9, a family social worker told my mother the situation with my father was not good for us and will affect our lives long term. My parents divorced. After the divorce, my mother, my 2 sisters and I lived in a meager bungalow in someone’s backyard. I was a lonely child and I didn’t really have any friends. I remember a time when other children made comments about my clothes… There were some wonderful opportunities that passed me by. I was chosen for special art classes designed to develop my art skills, but I was unable to participate. I was chosen to attend a special school where they trained tennis players, but I was unable to attend.
At the age of 14, my father passed away. My mother married again. We had a home but the man was not a father to us. I was angry, confused and hurt. Life had no meaning to me, so I lived for the moment. Those who knew me didn’t think much was going to come from my life.
I was involved in every activity that my school had to offer, only I realize now, it was to fill the void. I have good memories too as a teenager growing up in a farm community. I remember the Reverend of our church called me “Princess” when I visited their daughter. Another friend lived on a farm and there we had a lot of fun times. I was part of the Tennis Team, the Netball Team, we won our league and was part of a marching band and won the Provincial mixed band category.
After high school, I moved to the city and studied the course my friend wanted to because I had no direction of my own. While I was away in school, my mother got divorced. I was hungry for love and acceptance. I was very vulnerable. My life was quickly going in wrong directions…
A friend’s mother told us to visit a church in the city. I eventually found my way there, not knowing when the services started, or even what I’d find when I got there. One day, I felt the need to ask somebody to pray for me, I was on my way home when I felt a burden to turn around, to go back and receive prayer.
A turning point in my life was when I received ministry from a woman, who led me through the prayer of repentance of all that I’ve done wrong. I was there for a while! But the longer I prayed, I felt the burden lift from my shoulders, I received Jesus into my heart and I was filled with the Holy Spirit. I experienced Amazing Grace!
The Lord is so wonderful. Jesus died for all of our sin, nothing is too big or too small for him to forgive us for. My life was radically changed that day. What was hidden in darkness was brought into the light, and for the first time, I felt freedom.
Shortly after that there was a day when I was on my knees, tears running down my face, saying to God that I’m giving Him everything, not just parts of my life, but everything. I knew the cost, and I was willing to pay the price. I was desperate and hungry for more of the Lord. Jesus Christ has set me free in a miraculous way. Some things were instant, and some a journey. It is a lifelong journey of going deeper with Him. He’s peeled away the labels that people have placed on me, and even the ones that I’ve placed on myself. He’s shown me there’s a plan and destiny for my life. He removed the lies, and my journey continues…
He’s put dreams and desires in our hearts, and knows everything about each one of us. As we cultivate relationship with Him and invite Him to work in our hearts, we will become everything He has created us to be, and He will fulfill our lives. No one else can be you, but you!
The core of my walk with God is building an intimate relationship with Him. Not from a place of striving, but from a place of resting in Him. I love knowing Him, and being known by Him. It’s not about a set of rules, it’s about relationship. It’s about God who loves us with an everlasting love, He has given all on His part, we are changed by His love. The Father has shown me that I am His Child, and I have a place in His heart. This platform is where I live my life from now, and I can never fall beyond His loving arms.
I received the gift of God’s forgiveness. Jesus died and gave each one of us a gift of forgiveness; we simply need to receive it… In the same way we need to forgive those who’ve hurt us, we need to give them a gift of forgiveness. This is a key step towards freedom from emotional pain. Those who I have forgiven definitely didn’t deserve it, but I had a choice, I could either be imprisoned by pain, or forgive and trust that God would work things out. This does not mean we don’t have to process the pain. When you need to forgive someone, something was stolen from you. Your dignity, opportunity, your innocence, relationship… So there are emotions like pain & anger that needs to be released and given to the Lord. Allow yourself to mourn. Your mourning will turn into dancing. When you forgive you choose to stand with Jesus. He’s worked things out in my life in so many ways. It still amazes me…
Today my mother and I have a very special relationship. The Lord has healed our hearts - her heart is so beautiful!! She’s a completely different woman than she was before – she has blossomed! In God it is never too late. It is so amazing, God’s love truly transforms people’s lives.
Today, when I think of my earthly father I can find fond memories, and I can honestly smile when I think of him. The Lord has taken the pain from my childhood. Knowing God has been the greatest adventure I could ever imagine. I’ve had to turn away from certain things, and sometimes even people, but I’ve done so in order to choose what God’s best is. Looking back, the price seems small now, but at the time it seemed like big decisions.
God has a plan for you and I, He holds our best in His heart, and our lives in His Hands. It is not always easy, but it’s definitely worth it. The Lord has opened doors for me that only He can. There is nothing like living in the favor of a loving God.
I am in pursuit of the King, and His Kingdom. I want to see the Kingdom of God advance and see the earth filled with the knowledge of the Glory of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea (Hab 2:14).
This is the most exciting hour for the Children of God!!
Luke 15:11-24… The Father is always looking for His children to come home.
If you’ve yet to find the home or the comfort that I speak of, please email me. I would love to pray with you. firstname.lastname@example.org
“For you did not receive the spirit of bondage to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, Abba, Father.” Romans 8:15
Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. Rom 5:5
But as it is written: “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.” 1Cr 2:9
For since the beginning of the world [Men] have not heard nor perceived by the ear, Nor has the eye seen any God besides You, Who acts for the one who waits for Him. Isa 64:4
All who I am today is because of Jesus Christ. He paid the price not just for my freedom and healing but also to make a way that I can boldly run into the arms of my Heavenly Father God!
Crowned Miss Universe South Africa First Runner Up
Earned an International Diploma in Fashion & Beauty Make Up
Her life drastically changed when God called her to attend the CTF School of Ministry in Toronto, Canada. She was asked to stay on as part of the staff, and later developed and oversaw the USA National Prayer Network for five years.
Moved to the USA
Host the CBN Spiritual Gifts Webcast with Gordon Robertson
Contributed to the book God’s Supernatural Power in You
Chosen to be part of the USA’s delegation to the 3rd Lausanne Congress on World Evangelism in Cape Town, South Africa. She is currently serving on the Lausanne Strategy Working Group.
Founded Marguerite Evans Ministries
DVD Beauty from the Inside Out
Marguerite has also been a guest host on CBN “The 700 Club” and “700 Club Interactive” Shows.
She served until 2013 on the CBN 700 Club Interactive Show team (which spawned from the Spiritual Gifts Webcast) where she prayed with the online chatroom audience on set and she did makeover segments where her ministry transformed the lives of broken women.
2013 - Today
She’s been interviewed on the CBN “700 Club Asia” in Manila, Philippines, interviewed for “Kruiskyk” by Liesel Krause in South Africa and by Isik Abla for her Show on Inspiration TV.
Marguerite did her first episodes with a Farsi Translator for her Show on Mohabat TV. Estimated Audience 110 million Farsi speaking viewers across Iran, Afghanistan and Tajikistan.
She has begun to mentor and equip leaders, from multiple organizations and the underground church, who serve in some of the toughest regions in the world. Marguerite serves on the Middle East Women's Leadership Network Advisory Board.
She's a facilitator for the American Bible Society Trauma Institute.
Marguerite has ministered to churches from various denominations including Baptist, Methodist, Pentecostal, Messianic, Pentecostal Holiness, Assemblies of God, Non-Denominational throughout the United States, Canada, South America, the Middle East, Africa, Europe, Central Asia and Russia in conferences, seminars, schools, churches and Make Over Events. Marguerite is loved by audiences of all ages.
She resides with her husband, Andy, their son and their dog in the USA. The family is in process to adopt a 7 year old girl from Thailand.